confuse

today is july 25...
i'm comin back to u.s pretty soon..
but guess what??
i feel so terrible right now!!
i dont know why...
sometimes u used to a place for a whole
then u dont want to change it...
i think i just like that
and i know somethin gonna be change right now....
i have to use to the new life
without my family , host family and some friends
i feel so sad...
cuz' i have to do everythin by myself !!
sometimes i ask myself
am i really want to be in u.s ??
am i really have to do this ??
i dont get the answer
actually i dont know how
if... i meam if
if i didn't be the exchange student last year...
i will be better ??
maybe not...
i'll miss the camp , miranda , amy , the houstons and friends in the cou
so...
i found out
somethin already be the way they want to be
u cant make it to be the other way
u cant just follow ur feelin
the only thing u can do is....
how to make it to be better
to be the way u want to be